Why Walls...

Well, this is my first post on my first (well second, but first "official") blog. I'm not entirely sure what I'll write about, but those that know me will be the first to say that I won't have a problem thinking of something to write about.

I have titled the blog "Tearing Down the Walls". I'm a wall builder - a mason. I really am a shy person and tend to build walls around me so that I don't get hurt, but in turn that also keeps people out. I'm sure a lot of people do the same thing. I have recently discovered that there are times that building walls is good, but there are also times that it will only hurt you.

Over the past year there have been many changes in my life including a huge move to a city where I knew nobody, starting a home business (that didn't work out), and then starting a new job that I love. It's funny how things seem to fall in place at just the right time...that opportunities present themselves when they are needed most...that God has a hand in our lives. We just need to listen and let Him lead.

So back to the walls...over this past year of massive change I have realized that walls can cause more pain than not having them. That it's worth the risk to take a chance. You only live once. You can't turn the hourglass back over - when that sand runs out, what will you think and feel. Will you be happy? Will you be at peace? Will you have wished you built that wall a little thicker and taller? Or will you be glad you broke it down?

I want to be happy and at peace. And for me, that has meant slowly chipping away at that wall...breaking a tiny hole. Slowly the hole is getting bigger. I'm letting people into my life. Not afraid of being vulnerable. Letting them see the real me. Is it scary? VERY! But is it worth it? MOST DEFINATELY. So far I have developed some of the closest and best friendships I've ever had. And all because I made a decision to stop hiding behind a wall.

But for right now, I think I'll keep slowly breaking the wall down...I'm not quite ready to pull out the jackhammer...maybe in time. ~K